We often cannot see the road in front of us without taking a step first.
Or something like that.
I am no poet or proverb expert but it’s what has been happening for me.
I keep asking spirit to show me the way and I don’t necessarily ‘hear’ back but do ‘get’ the strong feeling that spirit is ‘saying’ TAKE A STEP, Adrienne. Just take the damn step!
Or more like, ‘just fucking do it, Adrienne, it will all fall into place.‘
Well alrighty then spirit.
Ever since I made a post on my personal Instagram and Facebook, encouraging people to do the thing they have always wanted to do, I have gone and done the thing.
I began creating content way back in 2007 when I started my Youtube channel and even before that with a little blog call ‘Journey to Raw.’
I’ve always had a nudging to go back to content creation and about 4 years ago was making some decisions about what to do next in my life (I had not really been working much, well, except for raising kids and being a part time Uber & delivery driver).
During this time, I was radically unhappy and money was a constant issue and I knew things had to change and it had to start with me.
Then my husband got diagnosed with a terminal illness. He passed away almost 2 years ago after battling ALS for 2 years. He was so brave and we had the most unbelievably difficult, and at the same time beautiful, journey. You can see his/our story here.
There is SO much to say and talk about and I will get to all the things but back to ‘doing the thing.’
A few months ago it seemed like the fog of life had finally lifted. I was feeling more like myself and had done an immense amount of healing and more importantly, integration of that healing.
I felt ready to embark on what was next for me on a lot of levels.
It was time to get back to content creation and sharing all I want to share.
And it truly seemed spirit was more than nudging me to do this.
It has been a wild & weird experience but more on THAT another time!
So I began putting out content just a few weeks ago and it has been so fulfilling, fun and, I am hoping, helpful and inspiring to others!
It truly is a creative outlet for me.
And whether this becomes my life’s work or a hobby, that remains to be seen.
But the more I do it and commit to doing it the more clarity I am getting!
And scary too.
Like, what is ACTUALLY happening and WTF is going to happen next?!?!?
I’m not sure but I am going with it.
Side note, it has also been interesting to see how fears manifest and old habits poke their heads out. But I’m dealing with it all as mindfully and as quickly as possible. I WANT to move past blocks and limiting beliefs and behaviors so I can truly step into what it is I am here to do. But wow! It can get intense.
Over the weekend I hit some blocks and was thinking ‘How can I keep this up?’ and ‘How can I create ALL the content I want to create??’ and ‘Shit! What if I run out of content?? And like, tomorrow??’
I rolled with this self-created anxiety and fraud-feeling for a bit and then I worked on quieting my mind. A few meditation, visualizations and asking spirit for help, I felt sooooo much better!
I realized I can just keep this up and ACTION WILL CREATE CLARITY.
And it has. With the added bonus of really being able to step up and into the service part of all this. The more I create content with the goal of helping people, the less it becomes about me. I of course bring my flavor and delivery to the whole show but I am beginning to feel in the space of allowing the message to flow THRU me instead of it coming FROM me. It’s pretty cool. And without the action of doing, I do not believe I would get to this point.
So as of right now my content creation will flow like this:
Blog – for sharing my personal journey right here and Youtube vid posts
Email list – for Spirit Speaks (weekly channeled message) and ‘in case you missed it’
TikTok – short, fun, blasts of creation conveying messages & a little about me and my journey, this feels like a place I can let my freak flag fly a little bit and get creative and practice my delivery
Instagram– longer form info and shares esp. in stories
YouTube – TBD (I’m still playing with the best way to deliver my message here)
One of the reasons I share all of this is because I really hope to inspire you to ‘DO THE THING’ and see that it does not have to be perfect, you can start before you are ready (or really, think you are ready because you ARE ready) and action WILL create clarity.
These will also serve as a timeline for when and if I support others in their journey.
I have LOTS of ideas, good lord, LOTS!
So thank you for reading and being here, I really appreciate it and be sure to say hi here or on any of the other platforms we are connected!