I don’t want to die a miserable b*tch

This is Part 3 of my journey to shift my mindset – and my life – from fear, anxiety and constant crankiness to one of possibility, love & miracles.

You can read Part 1 here and Part 2 here.

After the huge realization that I was no longer going to always try to fix myself and that I was going to LIVE instead, I began to watch my thoughts.

THAT was a real wake up call, I tell ya.

Constant ruminating over little and meaningless things (which I was giving LOTS of meaning to).

Having heated conversations in my head with people that did not need to be had. They rarely even needed to be thought about.


Lots of angry, crankypants thoughts.

I was giving all my power and all my energy to these thoughts.


Exhausting! Draining! Dooky!

At one point I realized,

I am going to die a miserable bitch. 


NO!! My spirit shouted. NO NO NOOOOOOOOOOOO!

I knew that if I continued to give my energy to these thoughts I would without a doubt, live a long, miserable life. And maybe not even that long.

And just a FYI…this is not about pushing thoughts away or pretending that we are not upset. That’s silly. I’m a firm believer that our emotions and our experiences need to be processed. As unprocessed emotions & experiences can get stuffed into & stuck in our psyche, our physical being, our spirit and can make us sick, a bit crazy (or even much more than a bit!) and as well, angry and bitter.

Fun!! 😀

So I was sure to notice all my thoughts and see what might need to be processed. I worked with my amazing healer on those particular things.

But the thoughts, the constant ruminating, negative & anxiety producing thoughts, did I need those? Did I need to give those energy?

In fact I did not.

They were telling an old story which kept me playing small and living in  this strange limbo of ridiculously high self-esteem (when I was all angry and RIGHT!!!!) and absurdly low, low, LOW self-esteem (when I was in the mode of HOW ON EARTH COULD I HAVE DONE THAT, WHY AM I SUCH A TOOL BAG???).

None of this was serving me, my life, those around me or the goals and dreams I have.

It was time to move on.

But I was not programmed for a miracle mindset.

Most of us were not.

We were programmed with fear and doubt.

We were told to be quiet, stop being ridiculous & to not be, think or feel what we were, who we were or how we were.

Whether this was from our family, society or because of a traumatic event, most of us have a similar history or have experienced this.

So what do we do?

Take charge, I say!

That is what I did.

I knew the primary way to keep myself focused on what I wanted and not these crazy town thoughts was to meditate.

So I began.

After 10 years of not being able to get a meditation practice going, I surrendered to not being able to and finally out of my surrender came action (phew!).

Meditation allows us to get our minds of the thoughts that are not important and that are draining us.

Even if it’s just for a few moments, it’s a very powerful process.

THEN! In time, you can take it into your life and into each moment, shifting your thoughts to this place of peace.

Honestly, it really works, you don’t have to be a good or perfect meditator.

I’m not at all. But getting better all the time!

Then I wanted to jazz up my mindset routine. I knew that meditation was an amazing piece but I wanted to add to this and make it even more powerful.

I committed to 30 days of doing a worksheet I created.

So every day after my meditation, I would fill out my worksheet.

Gratitude, ideas and affirmations.

Every day.

I committed to watching my thoughts and shifting them whenever possible. I committed to watching my words and especially not telling the same story over and over (unless it was about something awesome).

I felt amazing and it was a very peaceful kind of amazing. Not an overstimulated kind of excitement that can come (and quickly go) with the ego-y excitement we can sometimes have.


It was wonderful, it IS wonderful.

And wonderful things began to happen. I’ve been feeling lucky, in the flow of life and excited for everything.

I am NOT going to die a miserable bitch that is for sure!

I respect myself and KNOW that there are awesome things ahead. That life is really pretty awesome if we let it be.


I know it is hard sometimes.

I know it is baffling and down right DEPRESSING with some of the things that are happening in our world.

It can feel like a disservice to humanity not to give our every thought to WHY IS THIS HAPPENING?!?!

BUT! It’s actually a disservice to ourselves to allow so many things to take our energy, our hopes, our dreams & our power AWAY.

You are too magnificent to let that happen.


And yes, we are only human. So we can be strongly affected by all that is happening in our world, our lives and there can be hard days.

But what the world needs is more of us to be happy, thriving humans living wonderful lives.


Why not start off 2016 by making a commitment to yourself?

Why not create a daily practice that can help you not only get your energy off the thoughts that drain you but help you create an amazing life?

The Miracle Mindset Program begins January 4th.

We start with an easy meditation practice that anyone can do. Seriously so simple and easy (and short!).

We slowly begin to add the powerful Miracle Mindset Worksheet into our daily routine.

We wil commit to 30 days of creating a miracle mindset, taking anywhere from 10-20 minutes a day but the effects will last all day!

We will end the course with some integration and lots of celebration and you will create your own routine that you can do for the rest of your life.

Please join us!

It will not only be a powerful (and easy!) routine for you to do but an epic way to begin the year.

Sign up today here!

Have questions?

Ask below!

I’m excited for you and what’s possible.





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P.S. (again)

Disclaimer: This program is not designed to cure or diagnose any issues. I am not a doctor or a psychiatrist. This is a program to help you program your mindset, not cure any disease or mental issue you may be having. Please consult your doctor if you are depressed, anxious or anything else. My program is educational in nature and is provided only as general information and is not medical or psychological advice. As well, with this program there is no warranty, guarantee, or prediction regarding any outcome for you during or after the program for any particular purpose or issue.



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